"You say you want to commit suicide, but then you're being pushed back to die. It's a very refreshing and thrilling experience."
"T-that's not what I meant."
"I know. You can’t hold yourself back from feeling this way."
Hyeon Gyu-ha didn't deny when In Yoo-shin said about holding back feelings. Even so, if In Yoo-shin showed signs of anxiety and nervousness, the constraints of taming tied to his soul would distort his actions. Just like that time.
I don't know if that's really the right direction for Hyeon Gyu-ha.
But at least before he passively commits suicide, it would be good if he could give himself a moment to reflect on whether he really is aiding death.
"I’ve to think about what to do, so I'll try to be a little more worried."
Hyeon Gyu-ha put his arms under In Yoo-shin's head and pulled him into his arms. Thump, thump, thump. The gentle beating of the heart, the evidence of life, overlaps with the sound of Inyushin’s heart.
“I won’t think about dying for you anymore, so don’t worry. You must be tired from taking tests and walking around here today, so go to sleep quickly.”
“Good night, Gyu-ha-ssi.”
The hand patting his back was gentle, like putting a baby to sleep. In Yoo-shin fell into a deep sleep, listening to the gentle sound of his heartbeat like a lullaby.
When he woke up with a dry throat, the unchanging white sky was shining on him, and Hyeon Gyu-ha was nowhere to be seen. No way. No way. My heart was beating fast.
In Yoo-shin pressed his anxiously rumbling chest and took a deep breath to calm himself. He felt that his soul was still connected to him.
“If you’re looking for Hyeon Gyu-ha, he went out of the gym because he couldn’t sleep.”
When he turned his head in surprise at the soft voice, he saw Gong Tae-seong looking down at him with his arms crossed. The group huddled together in the gym was surrounded by a white flame more than two meters high.
“Is it already the guild master’s shift?”
“He’s sleeping soundly. Do you want something to eat?”
Recalling the memory of taking a bite of colorless bread, his appetite suddenly disappeared, but his stomach was hungry. There is no death more worthless than starving to death after insisting that something doesn’t suit my taste in a place like this.
In Yoo-shin took the bag of bread he had left over earlier and forcefully chewed and swallowed it. It was still a horribly bizarre texture that had no taste at all.
Beside him, Gong Tae-seong also ate his sandwich in silence. The ingredients were different, but the taste would be the same.
“The erosion gate’s monsters can’t be cooked and eaten. Just finding food and water is a big achievement.”
“The boss is still nowhere to be found?”
“Choi Jin-hyeok just came back after a quick look, but if he can’t be found even after searching this much, there is a chance that he will appear after some time. The worst case scenario is that there is no way to attack the gay tran."
Gong Tae-seong shrugged his shoulders and emptied his remaining sandwich into his mouth, then patted the crumbs off his hands. Despite the situation where he couldn't see ahead, his mind, which had regained its composure, seemed strong in a different way than Hyeon Gyu-ha's.
In Yoo-shin also swallowed hard and took a sip of water to clear his throat. I’ve to be careful not to squeeze too hard or the entire container could turn to dust.
"I've got something to do. Would you like to take a short walk to help with digestion?"
“Can we leave this area?”
“Any demonic beast who tries to enter will be dealt with by that flame.”
That was certainly the case. In Yoo-shin glanced at the flames blazing high above his head.
As Gong Tae-seong took the lead, the flames parted just enough for one person to pass through. He stood far enough away that the others couldn’t hear his voice, but close enough that they could sense the approach of the demonic beast crossing the flames.
In Yoo-shin blinked his eyelashes and looked up at him. He was someone I had never really had any contact with. What could he possibly have to say to me?
“You kid.”
The 22-year-old youth reflexively got angry when he suddenly heard the word “you kod,” but he soon nodded and agreed after thinking about our age difference. I didn’t know exactly how old Gong Taesung was, but he was at least a year older than me, so I was somewhat of a kid.
“It’s not my style to talk in detail, so let me get to the point. Why don't you leave Hyeon Gyu-ha and come to me?"
“……?”
"Whether it's wealth or power, I'm not inferior to that guy, so it won't be less than what you can enjoy now."
“……?”
It took In Yoo-shin about 20 seconds to understand what he said. On the other hand, it only took 1 second for his face to turn red with embarrassment.
“You’re divorced now, but didn’t you marry a woman before, Guildmaster?”
“Hmm? What does it have to do with my divorce?”
“Surely the reason for the divorce is………………. Ah, no! You don’t have to explain it! I appreciate that you think well of me, but………………! I’m heterosexual, oh, no! I have a boyfriend! I’m so sorry!”
Unlike In Yoo-shin, who needed 20 seconds to understand, Gong Tae-seong understood what was going on between them in 2 seconds. And after 2 seconds of being dumbfounded, he suddenly raised his voice.
“Who would do that to a kid like you who doesn’t even have a drop of blood!”
“So, you’re saying that you’re a gay who got a fake marriage? How could you fake a marriage with a third generation chaebol? Weren’t you afraid of the repercussions?”
"No!"
Gong Tae-seong, who had confessed that he was not gay with his neck bloodshot, clenched his teeth so hard that it made a cracking sound.
"Fuck. I really understand why you're dating a guy like Hyeon Gyu-ha. You two are exactly the same."
Somehow, it felt like Gong Tae-seong had been cursed at the most with that one word.
Gong Tae-seong finally managed to spit it out as if gritting his teeth.
"Hyeon Gyu-ha must have a purpose for meeting you. He must be paying a reasonable price for that purpose. I don't know how much that price is, but I'm saying that I can treat you better than that."
"Are you going to scout me for the Narsha Guild?"
"I don't need the formality of a scout, but if you want, I'll treat you like that."
The misunderstanding that I was a gay who flirted with a man who had a lover was cleared up, but the more I listened, the more confused I became. However, I couldn't openly ask the 2nd ranked, S-ranked hunter, and the leader of a large guild what he was thinking, so I timidly laid down a hint.
"What you're saying is that you need me not necessarily asking as the guild leader, but as an individual, Hunter Gong Tae-seong………………. I don't even know why you need me, yet."
"That's right."
"But like I said earlier, it seems like it's a situation that others might easily misunderstand. The guild leader is as famous as Gyu-ha-ssi. The fact that Gyu-ha-ssi and I broke up once and are getting back together is rumored on the internet in a day because of witnesses……………….”
In Yoo-shin glanced at him with an expression that said, “Can you handle the rumors that you’re in a romantic relationship with Hyeon Gyu-ha?” Gong Tae-seong’s face turned pale, as if he hadn’t thought about it.
“Besides, I think the guild leader is misunderstanding this………………. I’m not getting anything in return, I’m just dating him.”
“………………Are you really dating Hyun Gyu-ha? That damned brat with a broken personality?”
“Gyu-ha-ssi is a good person.”
Until then, his voice had been slyly watching and fidgeting, but it was clear when he said this one word. Hyeon Gyu-ha had no filter, was self-centered, and might have a bad reputation, but he was a good person. He was trying to become a good person.
There was no reason for someone I met for the first time today to criticize him as a crazy person.
At the firm response he gave for the first time, Gong Tae-seong wiggled one eyebrow and slightly lowered his head.
“I apologize for what I just said. However, Hyeon Gyu-ha is famous for his distrust of people, so I hope you understand that I can’t believe that he’s dating someone without any other intentions. Have you ever heard of Dr. Kang Seok-woo?”
“I haven’t.”
“A gate scholar. Your friend majored in gate studies, right? You might know.”
Gong Tae-seong took out a business card, wrote Kang Seok-woo’s name on the back, and handed it to him. He couldn’t refuse the business card, so he obediently accepted it.
“Even if it’s true that Hyeon Gyu-ha doesn’t give you money, I can treat you well, so if you change your mind or have any questions, contact me.”
“May I ask why someone like you, the guild leader, needs me? I don’t have any special awakening abilities…………….”
“If I get you out, I can screw Hyeon Gyu-ha.”
“…….”
It might be an attempt to cover up his true intentions, but it was a reason that was hard to deny. In Yoo-shin changed the subject slightly.
“What kind of person is Dr. Kang Seok-woo?”
“He’s the person who raised Hyeon Gyu-ha like his own child, just like an adoptive father.”
I felt a new sense of urgency and scanned the names on the business card again. Fortunately. When I was young, I lost both my mother and grandmother, but it seems that there was someone who Hyeon Gyu-ha could rely on.
Gong Tae-seong continued speaking in a slow tone.
“And 14 years ago, I died because of Hyeon Gyu-ha.”
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Translator: Hoshi Miya
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Yeah , therapy is needed to understand what the heck is happening like ,
how Gyu Ha and Yoo Shin talk about death(their own) as if having a normal conversation.
Crazy misunderstanding 😭 I'm scared Gyu ha has some stupid thoughts in his head(he obv does, but let's not turn them into reality) lets all live good and well and get a therapist. "Gyu ha is a good person" MY HEART