I tamed the First Rank Chapter 102
- HoshiMiya
- Jan 25
- 6 min read
Hyeon Gyu-ha winked his left eye and placed his index finger on the corner of his mouth. It was a face I had seen before.
“Secrets make men beautiful.”
“What are you going to do if you become more beautiful there…….”
“I will be loved more by Master than by a bastard.”
Well, 8-se is cute. Maybe because he is intelligent, he has more diverse expressions than regular hamsters, and it was cute how he makes all kinds of noises. But……....
'Of course, isn't Gyu-ha-ssi cuter?'
The words were murmured inside me, but I opened the front door first because I thought 8-se inside the house would be very disappointed if he heard what I said. I should tell him later when we are alone.
That day, In Yoo-shin discovered that Hyeon Gyu-ha's ability was also very useful when cleaning. Using psychokinesis, he was able to lift things easily and sweep and clean even the corners that he normally couldn't reach. Next time I do a major cleaning, I'll definitely ask Hyeon Gyu-ha to clean everything, including the refrigerator and under the shelves.
Time passed quickly as he had a heated meeting with the two hamsters and was cleaning up.
One of the few advantages of living in an attic is having a pork belly party on the rooftop with a great view, but In Yoo-shin hasn't been able to do that once in the two years he's lived there. The only person he can call and meet is Park Seung-gi, but it's a hassle to prepare a lot of things for the two of them to grill meat in the attic. It's not like they can meet and eat together often.
“So you’ve never eaten anything on the rooftop?”
“When the weather was nice, I ate alone.”
“Then let’s grill some meat together. I’m happy to share one of your first experiences, Master.”
“Oh, I’m not prepared at all?”
“All of the pet mouse’s cards are yours, Master.”
Hyeon Gyu-ha immediately took In Yoo-shin to a nearby mart and bought charcoal, a brazier, a cauldron lid, a grill pan, etc. Of course, he also stopped by a butcher shop to buy some pork shoulder and soybean paste stew.
As the sun set, cool air began to flow into the attic.
“For our first experience.”
In Yoo-shin blushed slightly and clinked his soju glass together. The nuance of the words “first experience” sounded strange, but I was probably overreacting. ……There really wasn’t any other meaning, was there?
8-se, who had regained his energy, ate the meat Hyeon Gyu-ha grilled for him. It was a shame that he couldn't eat the wrap because his mouth was too small. I thought he would really like it.
8-se was eating meat and looking at the brazier with a curious look. Then, when he was lifting the grill to clean it, he accidentally tripped.
“Squeak!”
“8-seya!”
Just before falling onto the red-hot charcoal, a small body that fit perfectly in the palm of one's hand stopped in midair. Hyeon Gyu-ha clicked his tongue and sat 8-se back down on the table.
“What are you doing here, without paying attention, in front of your Master? You useless brat.”
8-se fainted without saying a word.
Even though there was a bit of a mishap, dinner was very delicious. In Yoo-shin looked at the street lights gradually getting brighter as darkness approached. I had seen countless night views from this rooftop, but had I ever exclaimed in admiration like this?
Suddenly, he looked back and saw Hyeon Gyu-ha and the scenery of 8-se. This scenery, more beautiful than the night view, was In Yoo-shin's daily life.
Was it okay to hide the confusion in my heart from the person who had given me such a beautiful view? In Yoo-shin felt very ashamed of himself for not being honest and avoiding things.
Hyeon Gyu-ha came through the dangerous fire and saved my life when I was young. But what would he think if he found out that he regretted it and said that he should have died there? No matter how much he was bound by taming, it would never feel good.
……You will definitely be disappointed in me.
In Yoo-shin lowered his head and hid his face, pretending to drink soju. Would it be better for him to be disappointed? If he were to feel deep disappointment, he might know which of his feelings were true.
Then there is no reason for him to be tangled up in taming anymore, and there is no reason for me to become his fatal weakness. He will no longer be hurt because of me.
If only I could endure Hyeon Gyu-ha’s cold gaze.
I imagined his cold gaze. There was a bitter feeling welling up deep in my heart. If my feelings at this moment could also be read by the system, they would be filled with the word anxiety.
In Yoo-shin was at a loss for words. Why was I feeling anxious? This should be the result I had hoped for.
'……I think I'm too selfish.'
If so, then the least I can do is face my fears rather than avoid them.
In Yoo-shin swallowed dry saliva.
“Gyu-ha-ssi.”
"Unn?"
“I have something to say……………….”
At those words, Hyeon Gyu-ha, who was clearing the table, sat down next to him and took the attitude of listening. Since there were no lights on the rooftop, Hyeon Gyu-ha’s face was not clearly visible.
I’m glad, perhaps……. The weak part of his heart muttered. Even if he showed an unprecedented coldness on his face, it wouldn’t be noticeable. However, In Yoo-shin soon shook his head. That was just evasion. The evasion I had been doing until now.
In Yoo-shin carefully parted his lips, trying not to miss even the slightest hint of emotion that appeared on Hyeon Gyu-ha’s face.
“I should have told you sooner, but it’s too late. Thank you so much for saving me 14 years ago.”
“…….”
A look of surprise filled Hyeon Gyu-ha's face, which was faintly shining. He made a breathless expression for a moment, then groaned softly and rubbed his face roughly.
"………………Did you know?"
"I remembered it at the last gate. The pendant that Gyu-ha-ssi had was what gave me the memory."
In Yoo-shin relayed what Nzinga had said. Hyeon Gyu-ha, who had been listening silently, let out a heavy sigh.
"When I found out that the owner of the stone that was up for auction was Nzinga, I was worried that maybe the trauma from when my parents passed away would come back to me. Fortunately, that didn't happen, but why on earth did the pendant bring back Yoo-shin's memories……………….”
"I don't know about that... but it's entirely my fault for not saying anything right away."
In Yoo-shin continued speaking slowly, folding his hands on his knees.
"When I found out that it was Gyu-ha-ssi who saved me 14 years ago, I had that thought for a moment. Gyu-ha-ssi shouldn't have saved me."
“…….”
“It’s a really bad idea. But I still don’t know. Was there a reason my parents went to all that trouble to save me……………. If they were alive and not an ordinary person like me, they would have saved many more people………………. That’s why I couldn’t thank you, Gyu-ha-ssi. I’m sorry.”
Isn't that an absurdly selfish thing to say?
How is this any different from criticizing someone who jumped into the fire to save you at such a young age, someone who you learned to believe in love after seeing your parents, and saying that there was no need for that? It was right for him to immediately despise, get angry, criticize, and turn away.
In Yoo-shin clenched his fists, trying not to be shocked by whatever emotion was on his face.
Hyeon Gyu-ha covered his face with his palm and remained silent for a while. In Yoo-shin bit his dry lower lip. He must be really upset. It must be the first time he has encountered someone who says something like that after saving him.
“I’m really sorry…………….”
Just as he was about to open his mouth again, he felt something fall on his shoulder. Burying his face on In Yoo-shin’s shoulder, Hyeon Gyu-ha whispered in a dry voice.
“Yoo-shin-ssi, do you want to die?”
It was impossible to read the emotion in the dry voice. However, In Yoo-shin felt as if he was falling just by the weight touching his shoulder and answered.
“It’s not that I want to commit suicide. ……………… But I think that if there is a moment or opportunity where I can help someone through my death, I’ll accept it without avoiding it. If my death has any value, it is because it is a chance to repay my parents who saved me and passed away……………….”
In Yoo-shin, who had been speaking slowly, stopped belatedly. He felt Hyeon Gyu-ha’s face, leaning on his shoulder, tremble slightly. When did it start? When I leaned on him? Or when I brought up the subject?
The tip of the dry voice flowing thinly between Hyeon Gyu-ha’s lips trembled slightly. It was a desperation that In Yoo-shin had never dared to imagine.
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